I have a lot of feelings about today. It is a milestone birthday for your sibling, but we couldn’t celebrate because they have COVID, and while we were all adjusting to that fact, we learned of the passing of friend. God, I wanted to hold you both so badly today; Fucking COVID!
Each time I write I try very hard to not reveal any personal details about the people I am talking about because I have no idea if this journal will live forever in cyberland. And though I choose to publicize my thoughts and feeling, I want to respect the fact that I can’t make that choice for my family. That there is permanence to this digital record, while the people who are creating it are impermanent is one of the reasons I chose to write this journal. I want to make sure there is always a place you can go to connect to me and to this time in our lives. I want to make sure you and your sibling always have a record of how much I love you both, and how much you have made me whole. There is nothing I love more than being your mother, and I hope there is never a day where you don’t believe that to be true.
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